My Maple. I haven’t documented her like I should have. She’s not any less loved… but I’ve completely soaked her in. My second sweet red. With her quiet gentle demeanor. I love her. I completely adore her. I love how she takes my face in her hands & stares dead in my face. She feels my love for her. I can see it in those moments that she understands how much I love her. I adore how she twirls her hair…. to the point that she’s twisted it so badly I’ve had to cut it. I love the grin she gives me first thing every morning when I go in to peep at her in the crib. She says everyones name in the family… except for Kailey. She refuses to say Kailey. She only calls her daddy “boppy”… & we have no idea where that came from. She adores her Addi. Her face lights up whenever Addi’s around. I love to watch her mother her babies…..I’m not perfect, but in those moments I know I’ve showed her love. Shes completely frustrating at times. She DEFINETLY got the red head temper people warned me about. God has showed me His faithfulness through her. I’m so thankful for my Maple. Our family needed her.
“If I ever go looking for my hearts desire again…. I wont look any further than my own backyard” -Dorothy
That time of year is finally here again. Evenings walking the driveway…. hunting for catepillars & the soft glow of the evening sun lighting up your red hair. You asked for Anna braids on this day. I love how you look with them. Soft wisps of hair falling out around your face while you tug & throw your braids about. Your cheap playdress dirty from two days worth of play. Those same purple muck boots that wait by the door. Things will be changing soon. This is your last couple of free months before you start school. I’ve dreaded this day for years. I’m not ready to let you go. The other day you asked me …”are you & Ava gonna go places without me when I’m in school” & my heart broke. For almost 5 years you’ve been my constant shadow. I cant imagine going anywhere without you. So lets soak up this summer. Lets play in the water sprinkler more. Catch the most lightning bugs we ever have…. eat the most watermelon ever & let me soak in the last bit of childhood freedom you have.
She chased seagulls. She collected their feathers. She made sand angels complete with a smiley face drawn with her finger. She sang “let it go” at the top of her lungs. She gave me the silliest cheesy smiles. She laughed. My little red by the sea.
Little moments like these….. how you look exactly like Addi sitting in that sink. Its like deja vu at times. I thought Addi was the last of my sink baths…. but yet here I am. Watching you take in the water…. hitting it with your hand & moving your feet bath & forth. You explore & touch everything around you. Little drops of water bead up on your smooth baby skin. You giggle as Addi plays in your bath water with a cup. You gasp as water falls down your face as I wash your hair. You smile at Trey as he tries to get your attention for me….. I wanted just one picture with eye contact of you in the sink. By the end of your bath your skin & toes are wrinkled. Your baby feet remind me of when you first entered into this world. I know this is the last time. The last sink baths I’ll give. The last time I’ll stand by this sink & bathe a baby….. my shirt soaked from your splashes. So, I’ll document you & enjoy these moments together. My little Ava Gray.